hmm..weird

Watched '' Legion'' with en en and chee wai last thursday..

hmm.. It's hard to comment on the movie..

It's not that bad, but it's not great either LOL what im talking about

Just,

weird.

Overall, the movie was

a little scary * especially the grandma turned monster part. I spent 15 minutes mumbling that nobody told me legion is that scary. and i was freaking scared =.=

a bit confusing *still dont understand why the cinema cut the part when they were in the car then suddenly climbed to the mountain

maybe funny * where gabriel's wing is bulletproof. Reminds me of terminator =x

sort of meaningful * loves michael when he said those very ommh quotes .. like : when god loses faith in humanity, i still believes in you melts!

rate : 2.5 of 5

After the movie, we drove around kuantan..

Only realized i never really take time to see around.. hmm maybe i should when im free

I didn't talk much in the car..

Just stared at the window,looking at the sea

Everyone knows why

Dont worry, im ok

really :)

End

I knew a lot of things . Whatever you were doing, what you did is betraying me.

Dont ask me why, u know what you did.

And im dissapointed in you

Because i did trust you a lot

And if you are that busy to keep in touch with me

Then you dont have to do that again

i still love you , but i think my absence in your life doesn't make any difference for you anyway

You really hurt me deep this time

And i wont turn back

It's already a dead end

Just a feeling

Was chatting with a friend just now..

Talked to him about my insecurities

What he said just like a slap on my face.

Slapping me to wake up and focus on the more important stuff

xxx : do you believe in him?

me : yea. I wouldn't be with him for so long if i didn't have any trust on him

xxx : then don't talk about this le. Trust is the most important thing in a relationship

''This sounds so familiar'' i was thinking

Then i woke up, realized this is what he ♥ told me before.

It seems like i tend to forget what believe in nowadays.

And i sat there thinking. Im so stupid.

Instead of appreciating the times together, i was upset about silly things.

He really is a special one.Because what he have told me before,came out exactly the same thing from a grown-up's mouth.

I still remembered that i was shocked.

For a 21 year old can start thinking like a 30 year old

I mean i knew he was mature, but i dont know he is that mature.

It's so hard to find this kind of person to be your special one

Especially the one who loves you as much as you love him

And now i strongly believe in this too

'' what is yours is yours. It's fated''

Relationship has it's ups and downs. You cant expect a couple to be in the honeymoon period all the time.

Love has different phases. After u've gained intimacy with each other, it's time to settle down.

Let things go by their own ways. And hopefully it will blossom into something beautiful.

Guess i am a bit too rush. I lost my self by the words of others.

I am glad to have him in my life. He makes my life a little different. A little more special.

And most importantly, a little more perfect :)

As my friends say , he keeps quiet, it doesn't mean he don't care.

It's more than meets the eye

Yea. i finally understand now.

Let our love guide the way, and if it goes as i wish, it will bring us to the chapel where the wedding bells are.

=)

i hope he wont see what i wrote. He would say i sure are missing him badly if he does

But, the truth is, i am ><

i love you dear, with all my heart

Sick day

Im not working today. And there's nothing happy about it.

Because im darn sick.

Worst, my boss caught me sleeping yesterday when he passed by..

Luckily another boss of mine told him that im not feeling well

* this is why i like female employers more. They are more humanized :X

Was sleeping on and off for the whole day.

Mosquitoes were biting me like crazy when i was on my bed * guess they missed me for not being at home too =.=

My head was dizzy all the time . Couldn't even walk properly * im not joking. i almost went to the kitchen when i thought i was in the living room

Well msn makes me feel a little better. Chatted with friends for a while.

Starting to forget about me being sick

Then off the laptop, the drowsiness hit me again.

Shit

Normally i would put at least 1 pic for my post.

Dont really like to blog without any pics since the background already a little bland

But i think nobody want to look at my ugly very sick-and-pale face

So. suan le ba LOL

Saw a couple's blog today

Love does change a person

Changes the way they talk, the way they think

It makes me go : awww, that so sweet

just by looking at their posts

All the best to them :D

And of course, hope everything's fine for us too ♥

In curls

Just a random working day. Felt like curling my hair since i never curl it after the choir prom night.

Went to teng's house early in the morning..

Pity her she needed 1 freaking hour to finish up my curl LOL

thanks la sui po =x

And ta-daa!!

Hehe i like it a lot =DD..

Planning to buy 1 curling iron for myself and my mum didn't mumble about it haha *yay!

Guess i need to sell more p1 *sigh

Hmm im starting to get used to this job..

I realise now im braver to talk to the peoples

* from aunties, uncles, didi, mei mei, mak cik, pak cik, girls and guys

And don't know why suddenly im crazy about babies.

Like to play with them whenever they pass by.

And there's one uncle even asked me

'' Oh so you are married already?''

WTH IM JUST 18 LEI !!!!!!!!

i know i look mature,but im NOT THAT OLD LAH zz

That's all for now..

Think i will play with more babies tomorrow haha x)

please keep your promise

My eyes are swollen today because i cried for 2 hours last night.

I kept thinking, am i going to break with him again.

Thankfully i didn't. I still love him a lot,and i mean really a lot.

Dear i hope you will mark your words and keep your promise.

Maybe being forgetful is just a small matter for you,

a few msg less is a normal thing.

But dear, the longer it gets, the worse the relationship is.

Do you know how suan my heart is when i saw your facebook pics.

I felt like im those online friends that accidently viewed your profile. And got to know : oh so he's been there.

But im not . Im your gf dear.

The reason why i put so much effort in the job is because im trying very hard to ignore you being back the old you again. Im escaping from the heart-breaking feeling deep down. I thought if i spend all my time on work, i will get better. In the end i didn't.

I didn't tell you about this when we argued bout my job few days ago, because i thought u will realise it yourself.

But you didn't.

The thing that tortures me the most, is not that having too much arguments, is having less time to communicate and getting lazy .

You are being like that. Again.

You would never know how sad i am, how dissapointed i was, seeing you doing the things i dislike most.

My heart is in pieces now. You hit me hard on the spot.

Please dont let me have any more excuses to give up on you next time.

You might not get a second chance then

The 2 days we sent them off to ns

YES. Finally i have time to update my blog. Been busy with work.

It's like ages since i have the time to blog zz.

Anyway back to the topic. =)

1st day

Chee hong was only one who went for ns early. why leh =(

8am

Ok we supposed to meet for breakfast around 7.30 but everyone woke up late

including me =x.

Then chee hong went home and went to the stadium while we were still eating.

i should have eat faster =.=

At the stadium, we thought we still can chit chat with chee hong before he leaves.

MANA TAU, he's in the bus already.

And he cant come down because of some lame rules.

We just can look at him and communicate with him through sign language.

I cried. All the girls too. Haiz. cant even say good bye to him

2nd day

It's wilson, nyak and poh who's goin today. Although they looked fine and teased us about being too emotional , we all know they quite 舍不得 too.

We still talked and joked as usual, but it was just not the same.

That day rained, well kinda match with our feelings too.

We said goodbye, gave them the most sincere wish and a group hug.

Maybe we were over-reacted, but i really dont like the feeling of seeing friends leave yet i cant do anything.

For the gang

Then he ♥ came to my mind. He's leaving for army in may . And he needs to be in there for 2 years. When i think of this, it reminds me of the last day in kl. I hate that kind of feeling. Seeing someone you love that much leaves right in front of you.

心酸酸的

Four months to go.

Im missing you already =(

It's not the way i thought it would be

I should be posting some articles about new year eve and the day we sent them off to ns.

But now i really dont have any mood for it. Maybe going to post it later when im free.

I just realised that working is not the way i thought it is.

People are much more complicated than the way they look.

People can do anything just to get what they want. And i mean anything.

I've been working for 2 weeks. But it's like 10 years of schooling.

Why? i felt like i came to a new world. A realistic one.

I've been complained,scolded and even teased by those customers.

Wondered why i never cried, maybe it's because im too tired in the end of the day.

不是没有眼泪.只是嫌累了

Everyone has a story of his

own. Either an ugly one or a great one, everybody deserves a second chance.

The difference between us wont pull us apart,but only will appreciate the imperfection that make us work hard to reach what we aim for.

Just suddenly i have a deep feeling. Im so glad that the people i love and appreciate are real. Either in front of me or behind of me.

Anyway. Working gives me a better view of the world .

And a better way to protect myself